When people ask me what I want to do with my life, or what I want to do as a career my current supposition is that I want to write. I like to write, I like prose, I don’t know if I am especially good at it, but it is a challenge I enjoy. Stringing together a great sentence, finding a perfect word, explaining perfectly the way you feel or think, its fun. The next question that people in the know ask me is if I am currently writing. Sadly, my response has to be no. But that is lunacy. A writer that doesn’t write can’t be a writer, you’re just a person purporting to write. I may as well call myself a painter.
One of my major road blocks, and I think a road block we all face in many instances, in our lives is this idea that we have to have it all figured out first, we need to have a defined direction. I kept telling myself if I wanted to blog I needed to have it well organized, with a specific goal in mind, themed posts on a weekly basis, I needed to know what I wanted to blog about, my life, my ideas. My mind quickly retraces blogs that I love, they’re carefully crafted with goals and deadlines and they know exactly what they’re about. How dare I make a mess of a blog and put more white noise on the internet. Then just as quickly as I get excited about it I found myself dreading the failure of disorganization. If I can’t create a concise plan I best not even start.
But it is in my opinion that anyone who tries to tell you they have it all figured out, that they know exactly where they’re going, is lying, terrified, or delusional. We’re all just making it up as we go along. I did it when I threw myself into university being accepted in my first year as a general studies major. Then upon graduating, into the ‘real’ world lost and wandering around. You do it with people you meet, trips you take. You can’t know where your decisions will take you. And now, in an attempt to avoid getting too long winded about life I will cut myself off.
All I can tell you at this point is that my goal for this blog is to keep posts short, words witty, and thoughts sincere. I don’t know what I’ll write about or why but my main goal is to grow and develop my voice. And now that I’ve successfully made myself out to be a word nerd fan girling over the OED I hope you’ll stick around.